brought up being told i was sick when i wasn't

ohhh demo...while i dont wait for it and never really have recieving a phone call because thats all there is at the time being and hearing your voice would have been really great today. Not that i had a horrible day because today was fun but I miss you. I've finally hit a plateau in life... a great one that is more life changing than any other one. I see different colors that you lead me on to see.ANd i'm sure i would have seen more than the rainbow had to offer had you called me, thats all. But i understand you're busy with your junk, and i know that any free moment you had would have been mine. Please don't turn your back again though? Don't put that wall back up you started building!Yes yes i know you'll be home this weekend, but spend time with me. I can live without you, oh believe me.. but i'd rather not... it wouldn't be a pretty thing and i'd feel sorry for any bloke that'll have to put up wtih me SOON after that because i can picture that happening and i can picture myself becoming completely robotic. With that in mind, robots dont express love.. but i fucking love you man for anything it's worth. Thank you for being my best friend and listening to me. Thank you for finally believing me and putting spark behind me. Thank you for creating something inside of me that you never would have thought you could have... Just for taking the time out of your day one afternoon to talk.